Whoa, its has been like a long time since I updated. Maybe i'm jus too occupied wif things. Lets so yesterday I went to watch "towkay wayang" wif the mly dancers and today, I had Sajak Competition and I went to watched "awang belanga" Both of the shows are funny lar and entertaining. Me and affie declared ourselves as "lesbo for the day" cos we're like a couple sey. haha! and the sajak competition we won the "pehayatan terbaik" oi! You wanna knw why? cos we rocks on stage! :P It is actually good for a first-timer like us. :D I got like tonnes of hw piled up for me :(. And farah is sleeping over my house again today!
And i thought i was doing the right thing. But then you came and made me realised that every thing i did for you was just so wrong. I thought you could love me for who I am after all that just like him but you just can't. You just can't accept who I am even from the very start. Maybe all this were even started with a one big lie. A freaking fucking lie that ruined both of our lifes. I don't want to be the one who ruin people happiness and dreams. But I just can't take it when you point all those fingers at me, as if what we had was a big mistake and it is all cause of me. Eh, please sey you have ur bad points too. A LOT OF THEM. Just imagine, you could evn ask me to not waste my time on you when you knw I nvr did from the start. Put urself in my shoe, how would you feel if I would say those kind of things to you? I bet you would already hang up on me. Maybe people were right, I should have let those feelings go but all I did was to wait. Every miss and smses I receive, I still have a little hope that it would be you but you're just so ego. It is just so sad when I'm like breaking down to tears everytime I see ur face and you're like laughing ur ass off there. You've proved me that guy sucks. Seriously. I made him shed a tear becos of you when all he could do was loving me for who I am. And you what sucks the most, he is like the most nice guy and I just can't find a way to love him cos I love you still. I'm so sorry, him. I just need the time on my own now. I respects every of ur action cos I understand how you feel. :) My life just sucks you knw. you knw why? Cos every compliment I get, I would ask myself "why didn't you think that?" Cos whenever I see couples, I ask "why did you leave when you promised that you would be wif me no matter what?" Promises are meant to be broken aren't they? Cos whenever I tried to forget you, I falied miserably and hurts many people. Maybe its takes time. Cos I finally got tired of waiting when i knw you wun come bck.
Broken Strings
Let me hold you
For the last time
It's the last chance to feel again
But you broke me
Now I can't feel anything
When I love you,
It's so untrue
I can't even convince myself
When I'm speaking,
It's the voice of someone else
Oh it tears me up
I try to hold on, but it hurts too much
I try to forgive, but it's not enough to make it all okay
You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real
Oh the truth hurts
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before
Oh what are we doing
We are turning into dust
Playing house in the ruins of us
Running back through the fire
When there's nothing left to save
It's like chasing the very last train when it's too late
Farhana! :D
Labels: Cos the truth hurts.
