And this goes to you, you're sad and i'm sad about things but you choose not to do anything so things start to fall apart. I was there in front of you, and it seemed like i was never there. You don't know how happy I am to see you, after a very long time. When you texted me, I started to wondered why things start to fall apart. But after your reply, then it all came back into my mind, slapping in my face, why I didn't choose you. He has all those things that you don't, endless compassion and patience no matter how grumpy I may get. Your uncertainty kills me. Your ego is going to kill you one day, trust me if you don't change. I'm not perfect either but I put aside in my heart a place for forgiveness. This grudge of yours will not benefit you in anyway so might as well, just let go of it. You may get satisfaction but honestly, have you reflect on yourself what you've become?
This goes to Aidil, hahaha. I just find this super cute. :D Google with no results with makes my life miserable cause I have to read books -.-
I love it when me and aidil wear the same colour clothes, our pictures look so nice? hahaha. okay.people who have known me for a long time may know how much I dislike taking pictures. But this guy up here makes me like it. In one day, we can take up to 100 pictures together. I love taking pictures with cause no matter how ugly my face is, he will say "mana ader, cantiklah" and I'll just smile to myself. :) And most importantly, I can be me whenever I'm around him doing all those ugly pose. :D
On this same day last year, I'm like super excited that night to see aidil being the parade commander for evg national day celebration the next day. :D
And tmr, marks one year I've like aidil. I remembered I said to myself, if aidil were to not text me after the parade, I shall never think of him again and just go back to my normal life. But it all changed that day, he texted me "hi:)" after the parade, and I was like jumping around the room. The happiness I haven't had for a long time. The happiness I've gained from that day till today. :) I remembered that stopped and said to myself "omg, why am I jumping? Shit! Am i liking him?"
Well sayang, if you didn't text me on that day, I would probably be in my own confused world surrounded by uncertainties of people. Thanks Allah, for showing me the light that I've lost. :) Sesungguhnya Engkau maha pengasih, lagi maha penyayang:)
Farhana! :)
