Fine! I had enough! At least I dun make my blog private. so you could read this right? You just dunno how much it hurts right now. Yar, i know you are hurt too. I didnt asked you to wait for a reply right? So hell yeah, you said you waited like a dog. Hate me all you want if thats what could make you feel better! Seriously, I gave up! I didnt want to give you any hopes. I swear. I keep apologising and all you could is to blame me in the end. So that let be. Points all those fingers at me so you could be happy. Come on, try me cos I'm so used to it. Especially by someone like you. I am not ready get it? Why won't you understand? I haven get over him. Sometimes, I feel like begging you on my knees just to make you understand. Please. I swear its not my intention to hurt you and I am sorry if you do. I always wonder why can't I let it go. If only I let those feelings go, you wun get hurt. But I can't. Trust me, I've tried. So please, just go. Since you want to say goodbye to so much then let it be. I wun stop. Blocked me on msn, delete my num, remove me from your blog and end our friendship all you want. Its your wish. I can't grant it for you. I'm not a santa nor fairy. So be it. Grant it for yourself. If that could make you happy, then be it. I gave up. I'm happy if you are too. Whatever that make you happy then I will. I've said that remember? But for this evn if you're happy, I wun. I didnt expect this kind of things to be coming from someone like you. I'm tired of apologising, but this would be the last time.
I'm sorry, ridzuan.
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